Lack of trustfulness

 You wanna know...how unbelievable my parents can be? You wanna know?


Very! I'm suck of it whenever they always ask me to go out with them when no one's at home. 


Yeah my face is probably like Ichigo's face here too, haha >:(


But I'm serious! Why can't they just learn to let go of me? Why do they keep ripping off my hands everytime? (Not literally)


And by "ripping off my hands", I meant they always have to make me step out of the house with them. I mean...what kind of parents are these?


They can't even trust me to be alone at home. And it's not fair comparing to my brother and sister, they get to stay at home alone whenever they want.


Good for them! But me? Unbelievable. In this case I'm talking about, they just think I have to depend on them to be at home.


You know what? I don't give a damn about it. I cry out loud and I wish I could just stand up to them. Raise my voice and tell them it's time they stop thinking that I can't be alone.


And yes right now, they gave up and leave without me. Now they'll know how I handle myself at home without them.


I can already do things I know at home. Why can't they see that? It just sucks like heck if you ask me...if my mom and dad's parents were here, they should be dissapointed that their own son or daughter can't even trust their child.


Manage? There's still time to do stuff and what are they thinking? What...is this the end of the world? No right!? So they gotta quit thinking that I'll be lost without them.


And mind their own business as everyone does. I have my own decision, why do they have to go and pull it out of me?

Are they being any wiser just by forcing me to go out? They don't even wanna answer some of the simple questions I ask...


That just proves that they are salt! What's their point!? Just wanna be with them? That's still pretty much the same.


If they were to come up with another point, then show it! I decide my own future and they shouldn't be stopping me no matter the age.


Are we human beings? ARE WE!? Yes then stop forcing each other to do this and that and start trusting each other no matter WHAT!


No then get the heck out of our planet and go back to your home planet, cuz' you're not human and you shouldn't belong on Earth.


We're they same species. This is no mistake I'm making. There's nothing to learn from here. Yes love and concern comes but please! 


This two things in some cases, just gives the person a lack of trust. Cases like this. And so, I hope my mom finds this and accept my opinion.


Like half an hour ago, I'm taking a poop and yes I did go in the bathroom by time they were ready. They think I'm lying...


I already told them I'm not being a liar and they're just putting glue and stick their ears to the wall cuz' they can't seem to understand my condition.


I said I'm having a really bad ache in my stomach...or intestines(Cuz' most of our lower torso contains the intestines.


And so, I had to deposit some waste dumps from my buttock. Okay that sounds kinda funny :) But I'm not in a mood for amusement.


Anyways, they hurt. And I set on the seat until my pain goes away. My parents seem like they never gone to the bathroom before to take a poop with a bad stomachache.


When your tummy is hurting when you're sitting on the toilet, it hurts when you try to get up. Do they know that? I'm not sure about that.


I know that if you set on the toilet seat for too long, when you rub your butthole, it has tiny amount of blood shown.


That happens because when we seat there for too long, a huge amount of blood is actually concentrating on the arteries of your butt.


The longer you seat there, the more blood will clog your butthole. So it's best to wipe your buttock after a minute.


The minute is when you wait to feel if there's still some more of the waste dump that's gonna come out. That's what I do. After a few seconds when nothing comes out...


I force it to come out for at least 4 seconds. If nothing comes out. I wait for a minute while counting 10 seconds six times. Making a total of 60 minutes which...


We all know, it equilateral to a minute. Then after a minute, if it didn't come out. Then! I'm wipe the brown stuff off my butt.


But I had no choice, I mean...for one purpose, I didn't want to go out cuz' I just did in the afternoon till evening.


My daily planning is like this. If I go out once, it's alright. Two? I don't really like to make two trips. One is good enough for me.


If there's another place you wanna go, just go! You don't have to come home and then later make a second trip.


Just go there straight away. If there's something you need to take from home, grab it quick. Or just put it in your car at the first place. So later you can just take it from your trustworthy mechanical wagon.


And by mechanical wagon, I meant the car. Do everything in one shot and that's it! Keep it simple and do it all in one trip, in one day. 

Understand?


Well! I'm think I'm done talking here.


I hope my parents understand and trust me. Glad to be with you all ^_^


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Instrumental music I get

Alright! It's been quite a few weeks now since I haven't posted one single entry on my blog. So right now, one begins :D

Lol XD That was kinda awesome. And yeah this fist was suppose to be in the air so...


YEAH! XD


You all listen to songs that popularized the internet and everywhere. Even on TV. Songs like Pumped Up Kicks, Party Rock Anthem, Paradise, Fly and all those awesome songs...


But in some cases whenever you guys went onto my blog, you'll hear songs that are familiar. But yet no one was singing. 


That's because the one I embedded here was an instrumental one. Which means it's the song with no vocal.


No one singing this song. Just the music itself. Which is in some cases, this purpose was for your voice to come out rather than the singers themselves. 


But some people would rather prefer the singer to do it for them. Cuz' I dunno, maybe they're bad at singing I guess? I dunno :P


And I just listen to instrumental. Just curious to find out what it sounds like. Like now, this song here is Vanilla Twilight.


Adam isn't singing it at all. Cuz' the vocal was removed. And therefore you only listen to the music as I said it before.


So now it is what it is. Of course, the original vocalized one isn't gone ^^ It's still there. This is just another video silly.


Lol XD Why do I sound like a girl at that part? Jeez...


But umm...anyways yes. The songs you like, just go YouTube as usual. In the search bar, type your favourite song name. 


Ah ah! Hold it...type "instrumental" behind the title. So once you hit the enter button or if you rather use the mouse...click on the magnifying glass button.


Which less people do that though...


But anyways once you got the results, you'll have what you asked for. If you're using it for a blog theme like me, it's best if you go search for HQ sound/audio.


So that umm...it'll sound clearer and it feels fresh when you listen to it when people look at your blog entries.


Yeah :|


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Well! That'll be all. I appreciate you reading all this :) Don't forget to comment, share and get more viewers. Bye :) 


Hehe, never forgotten my last words...lol XD Okay bye! :D

My imbecile computer and class excursion

God damn it I hated it when this happens to me. You know, I've already told myself I hate travelling. And yet this happened. Now most of the class and I are going to Indonesia.

Yeah, Indonesia. That sucks, right? I dunno it is held as long as 3 days and 2 nights. Which to me, it sucks asses a lot. I hate camps that last 3 days. They just do >:( I hate these camps.

In fact I hate every single camp I've been to. And I always try my best to get my way out of the camp as to not going from the start. Obviously I can't tell my mom or my dad.

Or else I'll be going for sure :( And now they did it. They called my mom and inform her about this trip to Indonesia. What an imbecile this is.

And I'm pretty sure that's a name calling but I don't care. Because it doesn't matter. It has to ruin my good March holidays. Yeah I have holidays from 10 to 18 of March.

And it took out 3 days of my daily holiday fun D:< What if I miss something that the family did when I'm in Indonesia? I'm gonna miss it for sure.

I would rather spend time being in where I live than having an excursion to Indonesia. So it's both an excursion and a camp. It's gonna get filthy and dirty and messy and polluted...and...all the possible ways of dirty stuff getting in your way.

I actually hope I don't get sick or anything when I get there. I don't want it to be so hectic that I have to go to the washroom and everything. And we're having our nights at a resort.

I personally didn't think Indonesia's resorts would look that good. I'm not sure if it's like the resorts we have here in America.

I use to go Indonesia once and let me tell you, that trip ruin the first day. It was with my dad. The two of us only. And I forgot who I had with in that trip.

But I don't care. I just get things done in the trip and after all that sh**ty perdongkadong. I forgot the details. Cuz' I freaking DON'T CARE!

That's right, I said it. I don't care! I hate camps throughout my entire school life. I never loved camps at all. I don't care if I don't learn anything from there.

All I want is to be at home with my mom, my dad and my siblings. That's all. I don't have to do sh** and go all miserable. I miss my mom the most when I'm in camps. 

I try to hide my tears as best as I can so I don't get caught as to get humiliated or get a talk about why I have tears of misery.

Although sometimes I just can't help it ;( I can't go throughout my days without my mother when I'm in camps. I'm just loyal, that's all. But I just didn't like her nagging and all.

Sometimes it's just really unreasonable and therefore, annoying DX

And lastly but not least, my PC. I fixed it and it's still the slow ass pig who can't seem to finish a damn xxx futanari. Been doing it since 3 days ago and now I haven't even submit one onto both DirtyDirtySam and deviantART 

Everytime I fill colors, draw curves&straight lines, erase, minimize, preview...it slows down like a turtle. At least it's better than a freaking slow snail. It lags :(

Man I hate it when this happens. And now the Indonesia excursion has to step in the way and delay the submission. I just dunno why I'm so stupid to myself sometimes. 

And made things worse by the only me. I just wish I can control myself and make everything turn out the way as I planned. I just wish I know what's missing and happened to me lately.

I felt like I changed. In a bad way that doesn't meet or exceed my expectations. I hate hectic lives. I just wish this excursion is the last it'll ever be.

No more trips for the rest of the year. Or better, not at all from now before this one coming soon. Anyways I wish everything in this camp exceeds my expectations. I do ):<

So I gotta go sleep now since it's 12am already. Night night. Comment, share and get more viewers. Bye :)

I got the solution! :D (almost...)

If you've read my post about how I had my detrimental PC...then you'll be knowing what I'm talking about :) If you don't ):<...go here -> [link] 


Lol XD Anyways I've seen a couple of videos on YouTube on how to replace the power supply unit. And replacement was I think...the only way to fix the power supply.


Once you have burnt circuits, it wouldn't affect the motherboard, RAMs, generator fan...all that you have to do was to replace the power supply with it's wire.


Fortunately for me, I have one on the left of my table. Just sitting there. Good thing my mom decided to bring one from the office.


Lucky me :D Yay!!! X3


But the only least bad news was that I can't do it with my mom and and dad at home. Neither can I have my brother or sister around. This four people has to leave me alone so they wouldn't worry their ass about what I'm doing.


You know, I got the feeling that they don't trust me. I know they care for me but come on, I know what I'm doing. Serious.


It's not like I'm stupid enough to remain the CPU on and have myself shocked to death. Unless you're this idiot right here... Lol XD I laughed when I saw the entire prank video that came to be from Just for Laughs GAGS. Lmao XD This is so funny.


But as you know, pranks are just to make people laugh at the end or not...if that prank is scary and rather not that hilarious...


Is to not take things too serious. Like those people who just walk off the prank scene or something. But I gotta admit this prank here rocks! XD


Oh well. All I had to do was turn off all the plugs. Dislocate the wires connecting to the back panel. And I don't mean forcing them to come out and have them damaged.


Only a careless person would do that :P Then I unscrew the screws that secures the side panel into place. Slide the two slides at the right side of the CPU...


And I have my witnessing of the entire boards and gadgets inside this processing unit. I disconnect all the power supply wires to each instrument.


And then unscrew the screws that keeps the power supply unit into place. And put the unit aside. Then go to the one my mom got from the office recently.


Use that power supply unit and put into this PC that I'm currently using. And connect all the wires and put everything back together.


And it should be alright :) I just hope I do what's right and don't die in the worst case scenario or whatever.


Then I can now do my futa cartoon :D And submit them to DirtyDirtySam.


Hope to see you guys soon. And yeah go to DirtyDirtySam to check the futa piece :) Don't forget to comment, share and get more viewers. Bye :D

My CPU's power supply is burnt D:

Right now I'm using my backup personal use of my laptop. Since my PC's processing unit's power supply got overloaded.


Okay if everything isn't very clear to you from here, let me show you this picture of how the power supply looks like and the diagrams of it :)

Okay so there's a total of 4 parts in the power supply.


This one may look familiar to you. If you ever see the back panel of your computer before. Normally it's placed at the top-left corner. 


Or if your one is modified to the right then, I dunno :P So first would be the fan that generates the power. 


The monitor socket, that one I don't have. The monitor socket is not supplied by the processing unit itself. It's powered by a plug. I'm using an extension plug.


And here's what an extension multiple plug looks like...

Yeah it can hold 3 to 5 sockets. This one here only holds four. Mine holds 3 sockets.


But that doesn't matter! Let's get onto the next part shall we? The power supply AC socket. This one here is the most important part of the power supply.


Without it, no current will be powerful enough to generate the power supply and therefore, running the entire processing unit to use your computers.


That one I had no problem. And what you've been expecting the worse to be was the Voltage Selector.


This one controls the rate of voltage that goes to your computer. If you turn the voltage too high to the left...like what I did, the wire within the power supply units will overload and explode.


But it wouldn't cause fire to engage the CPU unless the selector has over the top selection. Then yeah :|


It only makes a sparkle in the wire. But as soon as you know, it releases a harmful toxic gas. Please do not inhale this gas strongly. 


It will affect your respiratory system and somehow cause some damage to your body. If you ever smell this gas, please exhale strongly as hard as you can to make sure the gas does not enter your body quickly.


That's what I did too. And umm...so now I can't seem to turn it on. I will be using my laptop in the main time until my PC is completely fixed and ready to run it's systems. 


I found a video on YouTube that I found really helpful but I rather hesitate for my mom's friend, Adrian to come and fix this. 


Here's the video I've watched...  Yeah I found this really helpful but like I said I will hesitate for it. I do not wanna damage my computer any further cause I'm not good at fixing processing units so... yeah :(


I'll have to wait for Adrian to come over and therefore have my computer fixed in no time. Hmm...man am I dumb. 


I should've know that that was the power voltage selector. I wish I could go back it time and prevent myself from messing with the selector.


So that was me half an hour ago in time. Trying to pull the selector. Of me not realising that I'm increasing the voltage of the current to the power supply.


It is worth though. I don't see that would be any consequences if I could go back in time to fix my problems.


But I think the best would be for me to wait for repairs to Adrian. And I even had my deviantART cartoons artwork in it.


There was one futanari art that I was suppose to submit to both deviantART and DirtyDirtySam. And it's still in there. 


Great I hope there's no requirement for replacing the processing unit with all my efforts. I even read a part of an article here...


[link]


Oh well, it is also helpful. And can you believe I read the entire part of this article? Yeah :O


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Phones compensates

I actually think using phones are nice :) They make me fit the environment. Like whenever I enter the train to head home or school, everyone inside the train is kicking it up on the phones.

So ever since I got a phone right now, everything compensates smoothly. Although whenever I text message someone, I type a lot.

It's not that I love text messaging, it's just that I'm sometimes always informative or that I would be extraneous. Or just...you know? Importance.

I don't simply just want some people to know this and that. I don't really like getting phone numbers from my classmates cuz' almost all of them are a bunch of noisy ass monkeys. 

And they are what I call "low class". They have these really wierd thinkings. Making them kind of being obtused and is rather sometimes senseless.

So I wouldn't get numbers from them. I don't care about their sh**. Only now how to hang out at places and stuff. Defy teachers. 

I also dunno why I have my studies off my head. I dunno why. But I've got to start one of these days. It's been a month and I've not done anything progressive in my studies.

And I can't today cuz' I had a eye that swell. But it's not that bad. Just that the arteries grew onto my eye.

Something like this...

Yeah just like this. But in this case it covers almost the whole sclera. Well almost because I still can see white gaps between the arteries. 

So now my eye is almost at the end of the recovery. Thanks for that :) By the time I wake up tomorrow, everything's gonna be ship shape :D Wait is that right? Ship? I dunno, lol XD

Yeah. Anyways some people were impressed that I got a phone ever since last Tuesday. And those some people would be the ones that I know. 

My teachers, my classmates, my cousins&relatives and pretty much everyone in school. Also my friends of course. 

Awesome :D It'll show that I'm matured. Which I already am before I got this phone. But I think phones personally don't change your maturity. 

Maturity has to start on it's own whether the person decides to or not. So anyways this is just gonna be what my subject is about.

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Three people gone :( Part 2

Okay now I got official words for three people being gone. And went to their trips. I seriously freaking MISS THEM! D:<


In fact, I couldn't even wait to go home. And I was gonna get worried I'm gonna have my detention. But good thing the science trip came in. Our class got to this clay making workshop.


At some kind of old school like building. One story mainly. And make clay cups. And this lesson will carry throughout every Tuesday. Sh**ty huh?


In fact, I also didn't like class excursions anymore. They're freaking filthy. And yet the rain had to come in. And I hate to wait at the building until somehow my friend, Brandon.


Has his mom to pick him up. Lucky enough, the mother gave an umbrella to our teacher and me. Then we walked back to school. 


The workshop isn't far from our school. All we had to do was to walk this huge long walkway and cross a bridge along the canals.


And we got there. So it sucks a lot to walk that long back to school. Especially when it's raining. And my pants got a little wet. 


It feels like as if there's really water in there but not really. As if, okay? As if. 


And I got my maid waiting at the train station entrance for 3 hours. God damnit, if it wasn't for the rain. We would've made home sooner.


But I did learn one valuable lesson from this. Always bring an umbrella, cuz' you might never know when it's going to rain. So unfortunately, that sucked for me cuz' I didn't bring one.


And now I have to walk to school in the train. It just really sucks without my mom being here. With her, my life wouldn't be so hard.


I actually even need her at home the whole time. Yeah my parents left the car at home. And that freaking sucks. Cuz' everytime I look down the carpark in our house...


I makes me think of them. Aw! I miss my dad, my mom and my brother. Without them, my life would never have been the way it use to be.


My mom even left her laptop here. I saw it and it made me think of her. Just sitting there playing her Pet Society on facebook and emails. 


It just sucks not seeing her being there for me. I don't hear a freaking word from her. And the phone can't receive her signal. 


The only thing for now that I could do is to text message her. To tell her what I did after school today so she wouldn't miss it.


Well my maid and I got to this barber shop in the middle of shops that goes under the train station where we arrive.


Yeah my maid pick me up today cuz' I have to go and get myself a haircut. And my maid had some bucks on her so we bought three breads.


The first one was this oval bun bread. That has spicy chicken floss on it. Hopefully some of you know what flosses are. It's this packed up furball that is usually made out of...chicken.


Or any other meat. Well it's the essence that's added in. You can't possibly hope to turn a chicken into flosses.


They're like this tasty meat flavor clouds. And then inside the bun was this weird delicious tasting cream. I dunno how to describe it.


But whatever it is, I think it's caramel mixed with milk or something. I dunno. And then later I tasted the second bread I bought.


It was...a coffee bread. Well this bread has a crusted crispy shell. Then's apparently made out of coffee. And it taste awesome.


Well the bread is actually kind of hollow. But the deepest layer within tasted like fried cheese. Lol XD I dunno how fried cheese looks like.


But it's just my way of describing it. And I ate it, it's nice :) And oh god, you know what? I don't care. I freaking MISS MY MOM! D:


Oh god, she's like the whole world to me. Well...almost. And of course it does kind of include my dad. And a stupid small parade is going on outside my house.


I swear, it's freaking annoying! Aw sh** I can barely concentrate on my blog. God damnit shut the heck up! Jeez...


The parade is going on for some reason. Whatever it is, I don't wanna care. All I care is that that freaking parade gets out of the neighborhood. It's annoying the sh** out of me! AWWW SHUT UP!


And it does make me feel like pulling hair off my head. But I don't wanna, cuz' I just have a freaking haircut.


Anyways, yeah I just really hate to see them go and left their things behind. Mostly referring on the laptops and the car.


They really make me miss my mom, dad and my brother. 


Well for one thing today I didn't watch Transformers 3. Was kind of lazy to. And well, the good news is that my sister is alright now. 


Yay :D At least I won't be alone sitting her looking at deviantART messages all day. And blogging and going on YouTube to see if there's any new videos.


I just do :)


And I got a last bread left. It's this light yellow, orange bun that has like 3 to 5 raisins on the surface. 


And the bread is filled with a lot of freaking sweet cheese cream. Oh god, I wish I'm the one who ate it. Well soorrryy. Okay? Cuz' I love breads like this.


I just can't help it sometimes. Lol XD


Some breads just can't be resisted. And tomorrow I have a freaking detention to see if I was to have an excuse or not.


I have a tuition that is freaking important to me rather than that stupid detention. Wasting my time sitting there like a piece of sh**.


Well I got this detention because I didn't attempt to this class trip. Yeah that freaking sucks. I mean, seriously? Detention? What the heck is that going to do? It's not going to teach me anything.


I'm like...

I just skipped a class trip. But you're going to make me stay at school for 2 and a half hours? Seriously? Sh**ty dude, sh**ty!


All the teacher have to do was to ask me why I didn't go. That's all. Did he have to give me detention? What was I to deserve? 


Just let the detention thing get off his mind for one second. Oh god. All he had to do was to just ask me why.


He doesn't really have to give me all this sh**ty business. Well thanks to my science teacher. We had the excursion. 


So thanks for all that. It really made my day not having detention. But it has been postponed. What the sh** dude. What the sh**!


Giving me a lot of crap. Well yeah I totally could've just went for that trip. And I wouldn't get this sh**ty detention.


And obviously I need to slow down on the sh**ty and sh**. Using it too much. Okay? How about crap? Huh? Is that good enough for ya?


Okay...crap :)


Crappy :)


Lol XD But I just hope my mom falls sick in some sort of sickness that she had to come home. Take a bath and rest.


And from that on, we can have some fun things to do together :D Somehow. She did once actually.


She felt sick and went came home. I did tried to take care of her though. I dunno, I don't remember what exactly it happened. 


I can't even estimate when it happened. But overall, I just don't get why she has to go out of the house for a week.


It's just so sad :( I'm loyal to my mom. Lol XD But I think most of you don't really like your moms that much.


But come on, she's the woman who gave birth to you. She's the reason you exist in this world. Without her, you'll be nothing but a drop inside of god.


Yes our souls are just a drop of god. Don't tell me you don't know that.


But as all. I miss the things we do when my mom, dad and brother was in. You know I'm actually kind of worried about my brother when he comes back.


And I meant that kind of in a bad way. It's because I dunno if he'll come back all sweaty. All sticky and filthy.


I dunno >:( I just hope this house doesn't get infected with all the germs that he got from Malaysia. I normally won't touch people when they came home until they take two bathes. 


Cuz' that's just my way of hugging people after they came home from their overseas trip. 


But oh god, there's gonna be tomorrow. And all the way till next Monday. It's next Monday that they come home. It's just sad to see them gone for that long :(


It really is. I mean...why do they have to go!? Why?


Besides the reason that they had a business trip! D:< And my sister was actually sleeping in her room. It's hard for me to realise that though.


That she was sleeping in her room the entire time until a few minutes ago. Well a few minutes ago would be because I'm typing sh** on the computer.


And if you haven't seen my random part one of "Three people gone". Sad face. 


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>>>Click here to read part one of this entry<<<


I also find it hard to change the blog theme. I mean, this song is just so awesome. It's the song they used for the Smurfs 2011 credits.


But the lyrics just repeat sometimes. Kind of sucks. But the song is freaking awesome :D Overall.


So I guess we'll just stick with this song in the main time. Lol XD I accidentally type theme instead of time.


Lmao XD


Oh well, it has been quite a day without them. Just couldn't wait for them to come back home. My mom...my dad and my brother ;(


Please! Please come home soon :)


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